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[22 May 2005|05:03pm] |
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yea i dunno y i do this but o well, i never write in here ne more. well 1 more day of god damn skewl!! im soo fuckin excited!! this means me, my girls, and the boys r gonna have so much fun! i cant wait! im half way off groundin, my dad will let me out but my mom still wont! but still thats an improvement!
so friday i went just went wit Kort after skewl, i got to ride a pony!!!!!!!!!! it was fun! this was my like first offical day out! yay! well we chilled and wat not and then that nite we went out wit Chandler and Dan F. it was fun! i also wanted to go see the old boys (Kissy, Captain, John, and David) but of course when we finally get over there im too drunk to remember ne thing! i dont even remember leavin the apartment. wow see thats y i shouldnt drink! o well it was fun for the most part.
yea so i just dont like the subject of boys. like i get this perfect guy (hes so sweet, adorable, he talks to me all the time, i duno in alot of ways hes alot like me but in guy form. lol) and all i do is complain about how i want a good guy and all that ish but when i get one i dunno its just not the same. i like him and all but i dunno its just weird! god and i dont wanna hurt him or ne thing u kno! but then there r like these other ppl that i just wanna hook up wit but now i have the chance and its just weird cuz i dont wanna hurt the good guy. like ive told him all of this and like i dunno wtf my problem is! i wish i would just fuckin not be a bitch! grr!! and i kno sum part of me still has sum sorta feeling for John and that sux so much. i dont want to like him ne more. and now i wanna hook up wit one of our good friends, its just gonna complicant so much shit. but i kno John doesnt give a shit bout me ne more and w/e thats fine, i havent seen them in a month so its easy for him to just go on. i just wish he would stop tryin to hook up wit my Best Friends! grr! i dunno fuck this! maibe i should just stay single for a while!! GOD!! watever! hopefully ill figure all this shit out!
now off to the world of medicine and tissues! bi bi
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[01 May 2005|10:04pm] |
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wow so prom was a CRAZY day. woke up and had to clean, then got my tossies done. then before i went to get my hair did i found out that John, my date, wasnt allowed to go becuz of the party he had the nite before. it was sooo sad, i cried. he felt real bad tho, he really wanted to go. i then got my hair cut and updo. it was really pretty, i told the lady to do watever she wanted. went home packed and then went to Dillard's to get my make-up done at Clinique. so i had an appointment at 5 but def didnt get my make-up done til 6. it suked havin to wait. but it looked reallly pretty when it was finally done. then off to Court's. we got dressed and Nick, Court's date, and Scott came. lots of pics. then to DaRuMa's. it was real good, the chef was sooo funny! more pics. then drinkin in the car, me and nick got one bottle. yay! then off to the dance! i saw ASHLEY!! i was soo happy, god it wouldnt have been the same if she hadn't come down. i also saw David, who i swear was dead cuz i hadnt talked to him in forever. and of course, i walk in and see Danny! yay! ugh! i duno wat it is bout that kid that makes me angry but really excited at the same time. i get sooo jealous. but yea so the dance was fun, it went by real quick tho. Danny got kicked out for fightin. he called me out wit him, and if u leave u cant come bak but it was Danny so i went out. and we were gonna go chill upstairs, but this guy comes and gets all mad at him becuz of the fight. so Danny had to go show the kid sumthin and came ba w/ Talia. then askes Talia if she wants to go upstairs. i was soo pissed, cuz me and him talk bout that shit all the time and he gets upset wit me bout shit like that. so i got in his face and kept tellin him it was fucked up!! he didnt really need that at the tiime but i was just soo pissed. so Court, nick, Scott, and i left. we went to the AmericInn. David, Alex, Madi, and all them were there. i was excited cuz i have missed them soo much! then Court waved at the cops and they thought she flicked them off so they came up lookin for her. god that suked! we like ended up pourin $300 worth of alcohol down the drain. i almost cried. luckily i took my Adderall downed wit Parrott Bay before they came. everyone was soo mad at Court. we ended up goin down stairs for sumthin and i asked the cops about her and he said taht she was goin to jail. i was soo shocked. he said that her big mouth got her to jail, i asked if i could talk to her and he said no. but her mom was out there talkin to her in the bak of the cop car. i talked to her mom after Court drove away. i was cryin real hard by now. god i hated that, havin to see my best friend ride off in the bak of a cop car. by now it was like 2ish and i was supposed to be home at 1. so im fucked. but there was soo much drama i didnt wanna leave Madi. and then Madi was left in the room wit Zak and Mike so i didnt wanna leave her. so i called my daddy and asked him wat i should do. he said just stay since im already fucked. so i stayed wit Madi. Talia then came, finally. (she went off wit Danny after prom) and i finally brought up the whole Danny thing to her, cuz she knew i have liked him for a long time. and we talked about the one nite at Marc's. i felt better about it til i found out sum other shit today. o well. i feel so confuzed bout the Danny thing tho cuz of John. i like John a lot, but i dunno me and him have been thru this before. i dunno i was really sad i didnt get to see him on Prom nite, no Prom sex for anna! :( but i saw him today! yay!! still no Prom sex but still i got to see him! heh then had to go home. god im in soooo much trouble for not goin home. my parents then said im not allowed to go to Court's house ne more. i cant go to my best friend's house, its such bullshit!! grr! they think shes a bad influence. which i can see how they get that but its soooo not tru! shes actually one of the better influences on me nowadays. and that leaves me here, not talkin to either of my parents, cryin every time i have to talk to sumone. god i wish i just didnt care wat happened to ppl so i didnt get my self into shit! o well i like bein a nice person even tho im told im too nice! :-/
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i love all my stoner friends!! for once i actually celebrated 4-20!! wasnt too high tho, i did have to go home soon. but Kort wow fun times at my house when we skip skewl!! heh so 4-20 was my last day of FREEDOM for a month, yet again! god im always fuckin grounded! i wish i was a good kid again! god im soo frustrated, i dont have my friends, my "friends", my drugs, my liquior, god pretty much everything that i shouldnt have/do in the first place. o well i hope they realize that just becuz u take them away doesnt mean i wont get more!!
the one exception to the grounding-PROM!! only a week left! god im soo stressed, my date-Kortney, mite not be able to go! grr, o well just have to ask one of the boys hehe
i need to stop, but its soo fun!! grr!! i miss everything!!
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| never a dull weekend w/ LBC |
[18 Apr 2005|11:04pm] |
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Friday: cold ass nite! we went out wit Dan and John (wow really awkward). did the usual meet up at MccyD's. went out to BFE. on Cowpen Lane yay made me think of Kim! then got called my Madi. got a lil messed up! (gotta love pills) we went to Marc's and i was wit Madi. haha i didnt get to see like ne one that was there. then out to Cresant! yay! haha we got seperated then left then went to a parking lot on the beach and just chilled. we have such weird times! then to John's!! (I HAD A GREAT NITE!!) HEHE! Kort didnt mean to be rite next to u! hehe wow so we got like at the most an hour of sleep! sooo sad! Dan w/ Charlie is the funniest thing i have seen! hah Cierra and Tara u gurls r too kute! so glad we chill now!
Saturday: went to my aunts in Brandon, was soo fuckin tired! chilled there for a while. then came home and went to Kort's and then out wit Dan and Kissy! went to sum house on Siesta, haha we took it over! had everyone come yay! i was a bitch, i swear percasets do not work sumtimes! its soo gay!! but and pretty much just stayed there and i finally felt faded at the end! gayness. then went to Dan's and found one of my shoes!!! yay!!! only 1 left to find!! then off home to Kort's!!
Sunday: Church! its soo funny that i go to Church now! but i like it there! then me and Korty passed out! haha i slept for the rest of the day! and then got scared by Courtney but its good now!
Monday: slept all day!! no school for anna!! yay!!
2 DAYS TIL 420!!! YAY!! (since u kno the first time i got high was last week heh im all excited!!)
also bout 6 days til i get a NEW CELL PHONE!!! yay im soo excited to get one again!! ill give everyone the new #.
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wow such a fun end to Spring Break! (only thing wrong was that KORT wasnt there). :( but ne ways! i spent the last 4 days wit Courtney!! it was soo fun!! i love her! friday nite was super fun lol i was passed out in the front seat of the car for 4 hours!! while we drove to parties and shit!! soo funny, damn im a lite weight! cuz i was like that after only 8 girly shots!! but i love the Captin!! Dan (mother fuckin) S. u r one of my faves, fun times on the beach in the rain!! YAY!! saturday we just chilled, great girls nite!! now my Kort is bak!! yay the 3-sum is bak together!!!
Court &Kort-haha were descibed as 1!! "i just kno ur one of Anna and the Courtney's" yay!! i love u!!
PS: may the Pope rest in peace!! (a moment of silence)
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last nite was so fun!! Madi, i'm so glad i got to see u!! that made my nite! i love all the boys we met!! Court, ppl dont kno who we r they just kno us as Anna and the Courtneys. lol that makes me soo excited tho!! i love u 2!! :( Mandy and Lauren had to leave this morning, off to Indiana! im gonna miss them!! Kort also left this mornin for Alabama, but she comes bak Sunday!! thats soo long from now! goin out just isnt quite the same w/o her!! Dani and Beth i have missed u!! Beth, ur the KUTEST drunk person i have met!! now off to a nite of nuthin...
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| SPRING BREAK '05 |
[26 Mar 2005|08:27pm] |
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yay im sooo glad to be out of skewl!! i havent written here in so long...
but spring break offically started Thursday at 12 (cuz u kno who actually stays at skewl these days). i love being wit my gurls!! we have the best times!! Thursday night was soo much fun!! Courtney u r DEF wanted! Kort nites r soo fun together!! hehe wink wink! and damn who knew Parrot Bay could taste that good!! plus u gotta luv the BOYS!! David, Marc, and Jon i love u guys, weekends wouldnt be the same w/o u!! Braden, Collin, and Steve u guys r soo fuckin funny!
ne ways yay im NOT grounded ne more!! so that means i can go out w/o sneaking around and that i have the comp bak! so i'll be online now!! god damn that was the longest fuckin 2 months. now all i need is my CELL but i should get that soon! god i love havin at least a 3.0 now!! damn thats pretty sad but still its better then last quarter! heh
god do boys ever change! u think u find one that mite actually be alrite, but then they turn out SHADY! i wish u could turn off my heart!
HAPPY EASTER! by the way.
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[05 Mar 2005|10:44am] |
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yea so soo much shit and drama and fun times have happened since.
me and steve rnt talkin ne more. i miss him but i have to let him go.
me and my gurls (LBC) were really tite for a while, but now theres drama again, like always. but i love them all soo much!! u gurls r the best!!
hmm yea life is really fuckin borin still, get off groundin in like a week or 2 i hope. but im soo glad ive been able to go out a lil.
theres this one kid that really fuckin confuzes me, i wish i knew wat they wanted? o well.
life needs to be fun again!!
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i havent updated in forever...
well my V-Day was GOOD! Steve came over and we had our first kiss!! i love seein him!!
umm now however Steve hates me, he figured sum shit out. im such a fuckin BAD person! i didnt realize how me he meant to me until a few days before he found out. god i love him! i miss him soo much!!
tomorrow is the V-Day dance! im not that excited but im pretty sure im not gonna be sober so its all good. i hope im not sober! i dont wanna have to deal wit shit!
Ashley also hates me. i kno what i did was wrong! god i miss her!!
i love Danielle, i dunno wat i would do witout her rite now! shes there for me so much!
GOD IM SUCH A FUCKIN BAD PERSON!! I HATE LIFE!! I WISH I DIDNT HURT NE ONE!!
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wow so last weekend was CRAZY!! i had soo much fun tho! granted it wasnt good fun but i dont care. i love DANIELLE! haha wow and now ppl r gonna go and talk shit but watever i really dont give a fuck! i met soo many tite ppl! i love being drunk, i feel bad for Dani tho cuz she takes care of me. :(
but of course after a REALLY GOOD weekend, i get grounded for bout 8 weeks. im like dyin already and its only been 1 weekend. i miss my fone like Crazy! o well i hate fuckin skewl. maibe thats y im failin! makes sense. ill seek out or sumthin eventually who knos.
well dont really kno wat else to write cuz i cant really go into details bout the 1st paragraph. lol but hope everyones doin good cuz i kno i havent been on here in a long ass time!
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[[ f i r s t s ]]
First Best Friend: Bonnie Pop
First break-up: Jamie Thayer (wow weird)
First screen name: hyperactive1116
First self purchased album: Britney (maybe)
First funeral: great-grandma
First pets: Sheba
First piercing/tattoo: my ears
First true love: Julio
First enemy: didnt really have one
First big trip: North Carolina
First music you remember: Micheal Bolton and Amy Grant (my parents were weird)
[[ l a s t s ]]
Last cigarette: last weekend
Last car ride: ride to my Dad's
Last kiss: Kevin
Last good cry: yesterday
Last movie seen: Aladdin
Last beverage drank: lemonade
Last food consumed: strawberries and sugar
Last crush: umm... the one i have now (no names nessacary)
Last phone call: Braden/Madison
Last time showered: yesterday
Last shoes worn: AE flip flops
Last item bought: Britney Spears Greatest Hits
Last annoyance: my lil sis
Last time wanting to die: umm...couple days ago
Last time scolded: haha umm like yesterday
[[ r e l a t i o n s h i p s ]]
01. who are your best friends? Ashley and Danielle
02. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? nope
[[ s p e c i f i c s ]]
1. do you do drugs? yea (or i kinda did before i got grounded)
2. What kind of shampoo do you use? Brillant Brunette
3. what are you most scared of? losing ppl
4. what are you listening to right now? Afroman-Colt 45
5. who is the last person that called you? Danielle
6. where do you want to get married? dont really kno
7. what would you change about yourself? i wish i had more self-control
[[ h a v e | y o u | e v e r ]]
1. given anyone a bath? umm.. i think
2. smoked? yep
3. bungee jumped? no
4. made yourself throw up? yep
5. skinny dipped? nope
6: ever been in love? yea... :(
7. made yourself cry to get out of trouble? haha yea
8. pictured your crush naked? of course
9. actually seen your crush naked? yep!!
10. cried when someone died? of course
11. lied: def
12. fallen for your best friend? yea (it sux)
13. been rejected? yea
14. rejected someone? yea
15. used someone? unfortunatly
16. done something you regret? def
[[ n u m b e r ]]
of times i have had my heart broken: 1
of hearts i have broken: 1
of guys i've kissed: umm 25ish
of girls i've kissed: umm 10ish
of continents i have lived in: 1
of tight friends: umm i dunno a few. i love peeps
of cds i own: dont kno
of scars on my body: bout 100
[[ f i n a l | q u e s t i o n s ]]
1. gold or silver: white gold
2. what was the last film you saw at the movies: Ocean's 12 (maybe)
3. who would you love being locked in a room with: umm... the boys from last weekend
4. could you live without your computer: i duno probably
5. would you color your hair: of course
6. habla espanol: un pequito
7. drink alcohol: i love alcohol
8. like watching sunrises or sunsets: mmhmm
9. what hurts the most: someone not caring (i'd have to agree wit nicole)
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so last nite my bestest friend moved away!! i didnt find out til today after 3rd period! its gonna be soo hard! she means the world to me! i like dont kno how skewl is gonna be wit out her! it sux not bein able to say bi but it probably would have been soo fuckin hard! god i could go on forever but that would bore everyone! lol so
ASHLEY NICOLE LAPPIN I LOVE U!! DONT EVER FORGET THAT!! IM ALWAYS HERE FOR U NO MATTER WAT!!
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i havent talked in this damn thing in soo long! so much has happened! i have a new cru~ i love the LBC!! ASH.DANI.BETH.KORT!! the boys we chill wit r tite too, jerm and jon u 2 r soo nice!! i like this kid named steve, i dunno where things r gonna go there. Julio and i werent talkin and of course i have to be a dumb ass and call him and now he almost hates me. (tati u kno the story) god watever i hope i can forget! god its almost christmas! thats soo crazy!! oo and melissa i still remembered ur bday, but Happy Be-Lated Birthday!! u too RAY! ash is in Ohio and Rach is in Hawaii it sux! well i dunno wat else to talk bout soo much drama happened wit Chan and Jeremy but its better now! no more fights for now! sooo fuckin glad we dont have skewl!! thats it for now i guess!! <3
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it was my birthday on Tuesday, November 16!! im soo glad im finally 16 i hated being younger! i got alot of money! Ash and Rach brought me presents to skewl. Ash gave me a pretty belt! and Rach gave me a Fluffy lil penguin and a shirt! i love my gurls! Julio made my day tho, he called me at 12!
it was Rachel's birthday on Thurday. i got her 2 balloons! and im gettin her present soon!
god life just seems to suck lately! i have no enthusiasm! the only thing i feel like lookin foward to is sleepin! how pathetic is that! i feel like i dont kno ne thing that is goin on wit my friends ne more and i feel like i have to split myself to be really good friends to both Ash and Rach. and it sux cuz i love them both! god!!! i dont really kno wat else to write! life is just kinda BLAH!
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yea i havent updated this thing in a while. not too much has been goin on. like i hang out wit Ashley and Chandler and Chad a bunch now. which is really fun i love them! but i miss Rach, Sam, and Dani too. and i hate bein the way i am cuz just today i was sayin how lucky i am to have such a GREAT group of best friends(a,c,and c). and i kno i am, but im just never happy cuz i feel like i can always be doin more, like i feel soo bad for not chillin wit Rach lately. and it sux cuz when i'm wit Ash, Chan, and Chad sumtime things just get to me and remind me of Julio so i start to cry. god its pathetic its been a month and a half and i still cry all the time! dude i just wish he knew how much he meant to me and how much i changed! god y do i still love him!! but dude its soo hard to think bout bein wit sumone else when the only person u want doesnt want u! sarasota is district champs! yay the first time since 95!
i kno i have friends and family that love me, but y does it seem that all i do it hurt ppl! like i swear sum ppl's lives would just be soo much better if i wasnt in them. like i havent hurt sum ppl but theres been sum type of drama wit most and i hate that im part of that! sumtimes i wanna just disappear and have everyone forget me.
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| FuN WeeKeNd!! |
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ok so this weekend was soo much fun!! and like i did such simple things that u wouldnt think it would be as fun as it was!! i loved it!!
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ok so after skewl! talked to Sam E for a little bit! and then i had to go to the gurl doctor, which was really scary! o well! then went to get Ashley Lappin and went to Kt Furtick's house! La Sertoa is soo much fun this year! yea we had alot of fun, but its all confidental so i cant explain it! but Never Have I Ever is such a Great game! yea and didnt get to sleep until like 4:30.
*Friday*
had to wake up early cuz Chandler and Bubba was gonna pick me and Ash up. so we got to the beach at 10. eww it was soo fin windy and chilly! so we wanted to leave. but we waited for Chad and Sam Bell to get there. then we went to David Wolff's house. omg its soo nice and big! so we laid out for a little and then went to Subway. and Dani Drez met us up there! haha sum bitch yelled at us cuz we were laughin! shes like thats soo annoyin! omg me and Ash wanted to bitch her out! then i went to the mall wit Dani, omg i love the new Britney Spears perfume! and i love my lil sis from La Sertoa shes soo nice! then went home cleaned and then went to the game wit Sam Bell. we beat Lakewood's ass! 41-0 and then we went to Mickey D's. i saw Heather Dean that i used to hang out wit at Girls Inc like all the time and Elizabeth Sileo was wit her! it was soo weird to see them! but it was good! i havent seen them in soo long! then went home and fell rite asleep.
~Saturday~
cleaned like all day! talked on the fone for a bit. then relatives came over at like 5:30. and then Ash called and said her, Chan, and Chad were goin to the movies. we had to wait for Chad so we drove around a lil bit. and then saw Ladder 49, it was good it just seemed super long! aww Ashley were soo kute! hehe yea so the movies was pretty fun, didnt get home til like 12:30. and talked to Ashley on the fone for a half a hour.
i spent like the whole weekend wit Ashley, its been soo long since we've hung out! i forgot how much fun we used to have! i love my Baby Slut! lol but i didnt get to see Rach at all, :( she had to work all weekend. that was the best 3 day weekend ive had in such a long time! i hope next weekend lives up to this one! Ash, i hope monday isnt akward lol.
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| H0MECOMING!! |
[10 Oct 2004|09:31pm] |
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ok Friday didnt go to the game, o well wasnt too bummed bout that. i had fun wit the fam so its all goood.
SATURDAY!
yea went to skewl at 10 for clean up (but i guess we were supposed to be there at 9 so i didnt even do ne thing). then hung out like all day wit my aunts and Mel. i love them all soo much. had a fit of stress, cried for like 15 mins. and then1 aunt like drove me around and got all the stuff i needed for the dance, the other one did my hair and makeup! i really liked it! it was pretty!! even tho i felt like i was wearin a mask. then went to my house so my mommy could see me, shes soo sick! i was sad she couldnt spend the day wit me! but i understood. then went to Sam Everett's house at like 6:45. omg 16 of us gurls there! it was fun tho! im soo glad i went! (Rach, Sam E, Sam B, Dani Drez, Ash T, Ash L, Kel, Kris, Sherry, Kim, Danielle B, Ash M, Brooke G, Katie Haab, Chelsea H) <- i had soo much fun wit u gurls! then Rach and i got to the dance at 8. super fun! haha saw alot of mooney gurls, kinda weird, and they were all drunk (not suprised). but like everyone was drunk except for us! lol :( soo sad i kinda wanted to be. we left at 12 and went to Steak and Shake! yay yummy food!! then to Rach's. i love Beau! hes soo kute! and finally got to bed around 2.
Sunday
woke up way too early like 9. Rach and i ate, chilled, and then went to the beach!! yay i havent attempted to get tan in sooooo long! and i got a lil sun! then went wit Cam and came home. god im soo tired! and i already took a nap! o well!
i love my friends! skewl just wouldnt be the same without u! thanx for everything!!
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today is my boy Chandler's birthday, my step mom's birthday, and my step dad's birthday. soo many ppl! I made Chandler a card and gave him a really big hug! then he made fun of me at lunch, i hope u remember that for next time if that ever happens again! u should kno wat im talkin bout! i <3 u soo much tho babe thanx for always bein there for me.
alrite this week has been homecoming week! great fun! had ISR (in skewl suspension) on Wednesday. it wasnt soo bad. today me and Rachel were twins! hehe we wore the same thing it was kute! lol and i dyed my hair on Tuesday. its like dark brown wit reddish tint to it. ppl say it looks good but my mom didnt do very good cuz u can still see the blond streaks.
Julio and i have had drama this last week. but last nite we got it semi figured out. well even if we didnt we ended the conversation on a good note at least!
haha kevin is such a funny kid! im sry tho! truely i am!
CAMERON,AsHLeY, and Rachel thanx soooooooo much for listenin to me thru all my shit! and everything else! i love u all!
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had skewl as usual. got yelled at my mom for skipping first period 2 days in a row, i hate that class. then went to dad's and to the lakewood game wit Cameron. it was alrite, lakewood lost to riverview, whom sarasota happened to beat! maibe that means our team will actually be good this year. then Cameron, this guy named Ryan and i all went to see the movie The Forgotten. it was good! but i got scurred a couple of times!
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umm did nuthin all fuckin day! Cameron went to her homecoming, she looked soo pretty. aww i love my sister!! aww Tadd looked really nice as well! yea so i stayed home all nite, talked to Julio online, that was a great conversation, not really. but i dunno i at least got to tell him that ive still kept his promise. so i cried forever, called Rachel (i <3 u, thanx soo much) and cried on the fone wit her for like 30 mins. and talked to Kels bout it before i even talked to Julio. o well theres nuthin i can do and i need to remember that.
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yea didnt do ne thing today either! Cameron worked all day, and i graded papers for Jo. oo i talked to Ashley for a while! im always here for u Ash. thats bout it.
ooo i found out that Ashley Lappin and Ashley McQuaig r goin to Sam's for Homecoming! yay!! im soo glad Ash L is goin. Kim mite go but she doesnt want to cuz im gonna be there, dude just fuckin get over it for one fuckin nite! damn. do it for all ur "friends" so that way we can all have fun! she probably will end up comin and i really hope shit doesnt get started cuz i dont want it to ruin the nite, for everyone else and especially for Sam, shes too nice to deal wit that shit.
</3 i want to forget bout u but it just hurts too much </3
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yesterday went to Battle of the Bands at Lakewood with Cameron. finally met sum ppl that she talks bout alot. saw Carrie, shes pretty kute and they r kute i guess im just jealous. i also met Nick P. hes sooooo funny!! and really nice as far as ive seen.
yesterday was also Julio's birthday, hes 17 now aww. i kno i said i wouldnt talk bout him but o well it was his bday i have reason to. it made me realize alot, is it weird that i still wanted to give him a present? i didnt and on his away message i found out he got the present i would have gotten him ne ways so it doesnt matter but still. GRR!! i just want my baby bak!
i really hope this weekend will be good! friday im goin to the lakewood homecoming game. dunno if im doin ne thing after, it all depends. saturday i have no clu i guess ill just have to wait and see!
so now im offically really excited bout sarasotsa's homecoming! i like actually have plans wit my FAV ppl! RACH (of course it just wouldnt be the same witout her), Dani, Sam E, Sherry, Kel, and Kris! there mite be more but i love those gurls! and ive missed the twins and sam i havent hung out wit them in soo long! next week is homecoming week! soo exciting!!
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yea ppl mite not like ashlee simpson, but i do and i needed to change it so thats wat its gonna be.
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i finally said good bye. </3
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today was a sad day. cried 4th period, ppl were talkin and it just reminded me soo much of him, cuz like we did the stuff that they were talkin bout. i have soo much hw that im supposed to do i have like a 3 pg spanish report and a project in english and a current event and i cant really think bout ne of them, it sux soo much. i miss talkin to him and i miss how he was the best one at makin me feel better. i miss his kisses! i talked to nicole, i wanted her to kno sumthings. so i hope there isnt ne bad feelings ne more if there was ne. and i sux cuz hes probably moved on and likes another gurl and just the thought of that hurts. its soo weird when uve been wit 1 person for a while u learn wat the like and how the kiss, etc, im soo used to everything bout him, i hate how that has to change!
ok i really hate blabbin bout him for a whole entry cuz its soo boring, especially when he mite not even think of me ne more. i duno i just feel guilty thinkin bout likin another guy, i really wish i knew how he felt on things. o well i'll find out sumtime.
i need to start writin poetry again, maibe then ill feel better. =/
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saturday went to Busch Gardens wit the family. thats was alrite, but it was soo hard cuz the last time i was there it was wit Julio. it sux cuz like then i stop thinkin about him for a short time sumthing happens and i feel like hidding and crying. and it hurts even worse becuz he probably doesnt even think bout me ne more. then sunday we had a little get together for my aunt. Julio was online, i tried soo hard not to IM him but yea it didnt work, we talked for a tiny bit, he talked bout his weekend and then said brb and was gone for over 7 hours. i wanted to just sit at the comp all day and wait for him to come bak, i hate the fact that we dont even talk ne more. and then i guess (according to his away messge) hes goin to Atlanta, and its soo weird like not to kno these things cuz before i always knew. but yea Tadd and Cameron had me leave the comp and kept me occupied for a little. yea he never came bak to talk but i duno i didnt really expect him to, i just REALLY wanted him to!
God i just miss him soooo much!! y did i have to be such a bad person and ruin our relationship. God id do ne thing to take bak everything, and for him to Love me again. i just Love him sooo much!! </3
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HELL YEA!!! Sailors won!! I dont think i have ever screamed soo much. omg it was soooo much fun. this was the first time the sailors have beat the rams in a consecutive year since 1989. damn. yesterday was soo fun tho. afterskewl went wit Rachel to Walmart to buy shirts, then to Dani Drez's to make the shirts. u gurls r all too kute!! (rp,dd,se,sl,at) then to the tailgate which was really kinda gay but there were sum really drunk kids and they were super funny. then to the GAME! of course the rams got a touchdown in the first few minutes, BUT we came bak and beat their asses by 1 point! it doesnt matter we still won tho!! after the game Rach and i waited for Ashley T. to call then i went wit Ash and Jenn to Cresant but there was a really big fight so it was scary and we left. then we went to Jenn's house. then zzzzzz
met Chandler's gf she seems soo quiet. and saw mooney kids there, Suzy, Kim, Therese, Michelle, Dominic, and Jenny Ball was there too. haha i swear they thought i was CrAzY! lol i was sooo hyper!
</3 Julio was brought up, i havent talked to him in a couple days it sux. i miss him soo much. i hope hes doin good. i just try soo hard not to think bout him cuz it just hurts too much. i hope he knos i still love him! </3
Nicole can u tell me how hes doin? i would really appreciate it even tho we did have our little dose of drama.
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Julio and i are no longer together. He broke up wit me. I spazzed, cried, and yelled soo much when he told me. I'm still hoping that maybe its all just a horrible nightmare and I'll wake up soon. but its real life nightmare and i cant wake up. he was my everything, its gonna be soo hard to know hes not there. were gonna try to stay friends, maybe we'll get back together eventually. (i hope to God that we do, i love him soo much) maybe then i wont stress him out soo much and he'll want to be with me, and i'll be a good gurlfriend.
i have to get over him but its soo hard when all my happiness is(was) based on him.
Julio i still love u. and i'm sorry for everything.
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